Today Is all about independence....On Feb.5,2009 I gave birth to a 5 pound 12 ounces healthy baby boy. There was no baby daddy no where insight, in fact he wasn't even on the phone. Labor sucks but after one glance at my baby it was all worth it. I was so tired and worn out from the nine months of abnormalities I just wanted to sleep. As I came to the first thing on my mind was where is my baby? When the nurse rolled my baby into the room I stared him deep in his bold, beautiful eyes and told him mommie is here. On that day I decided mommie was going to be there always. I declared independent motherhood.
I heard Patience is a Virtue....
One of the hardest things for me in this life is Patience. I have none. If I don't want to be bother I don't, If I you take to long I leave, and if you not my child go with your momma. Once you have your own child patience is a must. There are many times I get frustrated and feel like screaming now that I'm a single mom. Sometimes I do just that scream to relieve myself. What's wrong with that? You can't let things wear you down and be a burden on you. My child needs me in his life, not just part of me but all of me. I need to make sure I can so he will. I love my baby more than anything in this world and its sad that his father choose to miss out. I'm going to take every oppurtunity I can to be the best mom to him. If that means doing it on my own, hey i'm not the first. Hats off to all the single/independent moms!
Don't get me wrong, I commend any man who can step up and be a father to his child. I love the idea of the American Dream- husband , wife, kids, dog, house, and the white picket fence. I fantasized about it alot as a young girl. As I matured into a woman then motherhood I realize that's just what it is a dream. That dream is not for everybody. I often wonder when will I find Prince Charming and even contemplated of kissing a frog but when reality sets in THERE'S NO FAIRY TALE ENDING!
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A fairy tale is what YOU want for YOUR life, not what society says it is. If you get what YOU want, then your fairy tale comes true. As for the frog...well, that's a whole other chapter! LOL.
ReplyDeleteYOU'RE SUCH A STRONG WOMAN! I love that. I try to be as strong as possible. And I tell myself all the time that I don't need a man to lean on, which makes me all the more stronger. The fact that you to be the best for your child, that you're going to school and doing your best, makes all the difference. You lil boy is going to have a great life, just because you want him to. Never say never, when impossibility, is not possible!
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong! I don't know how you did that all by yourself. That just shows that women are capable of getting through anything without a man. Your little boy is going to have a great life because of you. Keep being strong and never think anything is impossible because it's not
ReplyDeleteI don't know about being a mother, but I have heard and seen how hard it is. Especially being a single parent. Your baby needs you to be a mommy and daddy for him.
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